Five and a half years of my life I spent with you, my dearest L, you are a double edged sword my greatest blessing and my greatest curse. You were the light of my life, you gave me faith in humanity, you never lied, you made me appreciate the value of honesty, and thanks to you I will never compromise.
Many have come since, but they have all paled in comparison to you, but now I realise that I never truly let you go. L, you have always been this specter, looming in the background haunting me, never letting me rest. If I am to find happiness I must let you go, if I am to make progress I cannot hold on to the memories of what we shared. I have decided to move on, cast my lot and take a chance, I am no longer cynical about love, I believe that I will find her and when I do I will shower her with all the affection that I failed to show you.
You made me whole, when I met you i was broken, but the love and care you showed me healed me, nursed me to full health, and by vvirture of your nurturing I began living again. You were my mother, my sister, my lover and most importantly my best friend. I must say goodbye to you tonight and begin a new chapter in my life. As these tears fall I exorcise myself of you, I cut myself with the blade of contrition, and I promise to love wholeheartedly and I promise never to lie again.
Goodbye L...............
Thanks for the memories. (RIP)
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LEMME GO READ AND COME BACK
RIP?????????????
Oh my God, I'm crying here. I thought you were just trying to let her go, as in get over her. But RIP??
I am so terribly sorry, unBoorish. I don't know what 2 say. Are you okay? I'm so short of words; I'm terribly sorry.
It's ok Vera!!!!!!!!!
A case of lost love, but in this case, lost to death, hmmm... The irony of life. Thank God u've decided to move on, and may L's soul RIP. Wherever she is, she'll be glad that u've decided to move on with ur life.
Oh, this is one of the most beautiful goodbyes I have ever seen Boorish. I hope you will be able to keep your promise. I hope you find her, and I hope shehas all the qualities that you are searching for and more. The woman that gets you will be very lucky...
Are you saying RIP to the memories or to her? Sorry I can be slow at times, but if she passed away then i'm truly sorry for your loss.
Did she really die? My condolences.
Letting go is the painful, difficult, but necessary part of healing. I sympathise with your loss but remember what you learnt in your relationship with her and apply those positive things to the new one. he good thing about love is that it is there in abundance. You WILL love and be loved again. Good luck....
Hmm,
Strong post!
IM SPEECHLESS!
...and I promise to love wholeheartedly and I promise never to lie again.
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Boorish Male
A great post,
It is good that you are not cynical about it:)
To Love and to be Loved in return is the greatest joy....as they say
and yes it takes a lot of strength to Move On...
All the very best
and unconditional love
:)
just a reader
Meeeen Boorish!, youve got the love jones! So uve let her go? Good for you, Its time to let some1 else in.
Whateva happened with Tminx? Did you meet her? and did she inspire you to kiss the past goodbye?
reading this, i think about ppl coming into your life for a reason...a season...a lifetime
she's gone but the effects of her presence show thru this post...and THAT is priceless...seems like she fits the criteria of reason...season...lifetime
Omg! Is she dead or you have just made up your mind to let go of her? To move ahead??
so sorry for your loss...:(
What happened to 'L'? Did she die?
RIP L. Though not sure what kind of death this is memories or the real thing. Whichever, it is well.Take it easy Boorish.
Did 'L' really pass or r u just letting go of her emotionally and completely out of your life?
~DD
RIP to the momories or the person who created the memories...
So sorry for your loss....
:-[
Okay Boorish Male, you really do have to answer...Is she dead or just the letting go part has finally come to a heel?
Either case, I'm glad you had someone that touched you so deeply and you've decided to love again.
Nice!!
please lemme know if you managed to totally let go..coz i'm trying..
Maybe am too emotional... maybe my tears aint worth a dime... maybe i can relate.... maybe... i felt the tears on my face first before i knew i was letting them go.. i had my earpiece in: Hoobastank- the reason. perhaps it was that and not ur post that made me cry
Thelma
Maybe i'm too emotional.... maybe my tears aint worth a dime... maybe i can(t) relate..just maybe... i felt the tears on my cheeks first before i knew i was letting them go. i had my earpiece in: HOOBASTANK - "The reason" maybe thats what made me cry.. that and not your post
Thelma
correct me if im wrong but this sounds like love......true love?, i rily dont knw cos i hv long since ceased to bliv in true love
love tht one i bliv exists.i think im a bit confused abt whts true and whts not these days.u shd let go cos u might actually meet someone deserving and u would let her slip away too all becos u hvnt truly let go of the former-hope u werent stalking her cos wen i fell in love for the first time and it ended..... i stalked and i feel so so stupid now thti thnk abt it
correct me if im wrong but this sounds like love......true love?, i rily dont knw cos i hv long since ceased to bliv in true love
love tht one i bliv exists.i think im a bit confused abt whts true and whts not these days.u shd let go cos u might actually meet someone deserving and u would let her slip away too all becos u hvnt truly let go of the former-hope u werent stalking her cos wen i fell in love for the first time and it ended..... i stalked and i feel so so stupid now thti thnk abt it
also let me say that,i fell in love with this guy and now i thnk all the qualities abt this guy i used to hold in such high esteem, i found out tht it was all a lie mayb tht made my own healing process faster and to thnk tht i actually compared him to my bobo a coupla times, sometimes wen i remember i wana slap myself nevetheless i learnt a lot frm tht rel.lesson learnt.1.its easy TO TAKE FOR GRANTED....HAPPINESS..,BLISS AND REMEMBER THT BEING EXTREMELY SUBMISSIVE, NOTICE I SAID EXTREMELY... IS QUITE A SMALL PRICE TO PAY.
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