This evening i recieved a call from a past girlfriend of mine, she recognised my writing style and read an earlier post of mine (http://boorishmale.blogspot.com/2006/12/and-then-they-were-gone_04.html) She was wailing incoherrently, crying and apologizing for hurting my feelings. She gave an excuse, left work and called me. She would not accept that i harbour no ill feelings towards her and I wish her nothing but the best, she told me that she has not experienced happiness since we broke up and has not had a succesful relationship since . Why? Why saddle me with this? Why riddle me with emotions of guilt?
I am no longer interested in her, but I do care about her well being. If it meant a thing to her, why did she let it go? I asked her these questions and and she screamed louder and said a lot horrible things about herself. I've not been myself since.
My dearest friend, I love you but not the the way you wish, I am in a space where I am open, open to find someone that truly gives me joy, someone to share my good and bad times with. The fates have dictated that we are not to be, I implore you to move on, I plead with you to seek help, save yourself from this life of misery and get on with your life.............. Because I have.
I have decided to to reveal myself to a certain person out there, T Minx if i contact you, will you keep my identity secret, will you give me audience without prejudice? Will you be willing to accomodate a friend? (even one as boorish as myself)............
I am no longer interested in her, but I do care about her well being. If it meant a thing to her, why did she let it go? I asked her these questions and and she screamed louder and said a lot horrible things about herself. I've not been myself since.
My dearest friend, I love you but not the the way you wish, I am in a space where I am open, open to find someone that truly gives me joy, someone to share my good and bad times with. The fates have dictated that we are not to be, I implore you to move on, I plead with you to seek help, save yourself from this life of misery and get on with your life.............. Because I have.
I have decided to to reveal myself to a certain person out there, T Minx if i contact you, will you keep my identity secret, will you give me audience without prejudice? Will you be willing to accomodate a friend? (even one as boorish as myself)............
Tminx would you believe me if told you that I find your eyes haunting, I find them limpid and serene, I could lose myself in them. The day I met you, your choice of makeup was flawless and complimented your skintone, and that smile. You seemed to harbour this ethereal quality that made you appear above all things petty, it was almost regal. Do i commit bloging harakiri and reveal who i am to you?
23 comments:
Ol boy U dey Blog fire... Mehn notin do ur Bloggin skillz At all... U get mad writing talent but i'm sure u didn't need me to tell u that.. take it easy Mehn..
Thanks dude!!!!!!!!!!!
wow!
hmm!! My friend Tminx is hot cakes oo. Go on ahead girl!!! And boorish male, her outward beauty is nothing compared to her inner beauty.
@nilla
Thanks for dropping by.
@my heart
She seems really sweet
she told me that she has not experienced happiness since we broke up and has not had a succesful relationship since . Why? Why saddle me with this? Why riddle me with emotions of guilt?
it sucks to be put in dat kinda situation..........dats proper emotional blackmail
men, that ur past girl made a big mistake, u seem like a really nice guy. u'v got a very gd way of expressing ur feelins inur posts. i must say i admire ur writing skills. as 4 tminx i dey jearous o, her head shld be swelling seein all these posts. and since som1 can testify 2 d fact that her physical beauty is nothin compared to d inner, i'l say 'you go boy', i'm havin a gd gd feelin bout this. nice post or i mean posts.................................
She must have found it really hard to call you today and tell you all this, Perhaps to her it was a form of closure, to aliviate the loss she felt for her first borns whom she lost in a moment of madness and fear? You knew her best, but it just seems like she needed to know she hadn't made a mistake and the wailing of the babe she hears at night were just in her head and not her own flesh and blood. I applaud her for calling you, perhaps by reading your post it made her realize what she had lost and how much hurt she had caused you. We walk in the sands of time but once, and there is no return.
I hope meeting tminx will be all you hope for. Nice1 boorish
but really who do u like, vera or tminx. u dis buoy u dey confuse me oh or are u 1 of those playaz. u beta not be oh cos we'l sue u on tminx's behalf if u end up being a playa..........nice post man, u fit make person head swell sha.
T- Minx ooo where are you??? oya come and see this thing oooooo... who are you gonna pick now, Baba Alaye or Mr. Boorish... this is fun...
TMinx is HOT stuff, Vera - READ and WEEP! LOL!!!
Eeyah... I do feel for your ex. I hope she is able to move on and be happy...
I think TMinx seems like an awesome person - that's why so many people are drawn to her - you two would probably hit it off. Good luck with that.
na wa oh..Tminx, oja e'n ta gan oh (Trans: ur goods r selling well, well,..lol)
Na wa for this TMinx o. Where are they all meeting u sef? Don't u ever sit at home (lol)? Boorish male, u better act fast 'cos u sure do have loads of competition.
By the way, i was gonna mention too that TMinx is inner beauty is om'n else. She has a beautiful heart, and is a gentle soul, well except u get on her wrong side (lol).
Who is Cherub...now I'm curious. Who are youuu?
This muust have brought up painful memories for you and her. I'm sure she genuinely sorry seeing as she was so upset. I hope she finds healing. Mr boor theres no harm in being friends. You truly know how to write really well.
Miss T - has done it yet again - her beauty have hunted many to the point of revealing their identity to the world. What a woman.
You know, I read this post and your past one and I can't help but smile at your character and compassionate soul. Knowing male egos, most especially Naija guys, you truly stand out. I hope your blog attributes match the real you. Can I add you to my Blog? It’s pretty new and I’m not necessarily out in the open yet.
Take care.
LOL. She called feeling bad? I guess we dont realise how much we impact the lives of others. This TMinx thing - na wa oh!
lollllllll...hmm...
Tminx is beautiful...very smart babe...go get her boy...i am right behind you.
Hmmmmmmmm i read your previous and present post and i commend you for your God giving writing Talent and also sharing your experience.
As painful as it may have been for you i'm almost certain it was a million times worse for her.
I'm a firm believer in the saying "what is meant for you cannot miss you, and what missed you was not meant for you".
It is only God who can forgive, but 1st she must learn to forgive herself and let go of the past, rather than constantly replaying it in her mind, thereby reliving the experience over and over again.
Reliving such experiences is liken to the writer who uses his finger to write on water!
I pray you both continue to find peace and God's guidiance in all you do.
Stay blessed.
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